The results are in...

I'm pregnant! 

I had my first beta on Wednesday, 12-8.  My blood draw was at 7, but I didn't get to call for the results until after school at 3:40.  My heart dang near pounded out of my chest.  The nurse was very calm and cool about leaving my message.  Just her tone in the first few seconds made my heart sink into my chest.  Here we go again, I thought.  But then, I heard those glorious words for the first time ever... "I'm calling to congratulate you, you're pregnant."  I started shaking so badly, my heart was about to burst out of my chest.  I'm pregnant. 

Since with IF, there are not many opportunities for surprises, I knew that Jamie would be trying to read my expression when I got home.  I stopped at the store and got him a BABY Ruth candy bar.  When I pulled up, he was outside with his truck on.  Evidently, he thought his chiropractor appointment was at 4:45 instead of 5:45.  So he came in the house with me, called to double check the time, and then took his coat off.  When he turned back toward me I handed him the candy bar.  He looked at it and was like "Yeah? It was postive?"  I nodded the whole time and told him that we were indeed pregnant.  We hugged, he cried, he went into a kind of shocked state for a few minutes, just saying "We're pregnant.  We're going to have a baby."  We then had to sit and listen to the message from the nurse a couple of times to get the directions.  They consider anything over 25 to be positive.  My beta was 365!  I go back on Monday for beta #2.  Every 2-3  days they want the number to double, so by Monday I should be around 1400 or so.  I took a hpt right away just to see what it looks like when it's positive!

We told my parents Wednesday night, Nick/Brooke/Dominick and Brooke's mom on Thursday, and will tell Jamie's parents today when he gets home from work.  Jamie and I were discussing it over dinner last night and by far, Brooke is the winner for best reaction so far! 

So that's what my last few days have been like, very unreal.  It still hasn't sunk in yet.  My dear friend/cousin Amber sums it up best as "cautiously expecting our first fet miracle" (although she has 2 miracles!).  I'm very excited, just extremely cautious.  I want that second beta.  I want to know a loose timeline for labs and ultrasounds.  I just want this little SnuggleBug to be healthy and stay put and grow.