the time has come

Bleh.  Ugh.  This is not a topic or post that I'm really thrilled to sit down and write about, but it's time.  It's been time and I've been putting it off.  So, here goes...  I need to lose weight.  Again.  For about the millionth time in my life. 

After the babies were born, by the time I came home from the hospital (5 days later) I was AT my pre pregnancy weight.  Within a week or two I was down to my pre ttc weight.  WTF has happened?  I'm almost, not quite, back up to my pregnancy weight.  Yup, that's right, I weigh almost what I did when I was 30 something weeks pregnant with twins.  Shoot me now.  I'm not quite comfortable talking numbers on here at this point.  Maybe once I lose a bunch then I can reflect back on where I started from, but not today. 

I'm going to do the best that I can, one day at a time.  I'm going to follow the Weight Watchers points plan as much as I can, but I'm doing it on my own.  I have joined WW so many times, and I know exactly what I need to do to lose the weight.  It's just a matter of actually doing it.  There will be meals that I throw my hands up in the air at.  Heck, if I'm being honest, there will probably be entire days like that.  And that will be ok. 

Just like when I was pregnant  ::sigh::  and I took tummy pictures so I could watch myself grow, it's time to watch myself shrink now.  I'm thinking maybe every other week, or even once a month as time goes on.  I have set a few goal weights at different milestones.  My first goal is -14 pounds by Valentine's Day.  Baby steps.  I'll share the rest after each one is acheived.  So, there it is.  In writing for the world to see.  I hesitated even 'going there' on this little blog, but I decided that it's just one more way to hold myself accountable.  Wish me luck!